turn on the night light

i felt the weight  on my shoulders. my chest sinking, heavy. it made me feel breathless, and could not tell you why. the questions flooded, poured into my mind. would you run? i said the words, breathless,  and i stared, breathless into your eyes. you reminded me what it feels like to want to look at someone  and feel breathless. 

if you pulled me close as much as you push me away, maybe you would  see the light in my eyes  that brightens,  sharpens,  from your gaze.  maybe. there are no maybes for you. no perhaps grey areas don't exist in a mind that is so  black,  and white. white, not light,  for the darkness  within you pulls me in,  but not because you  want it to,  but because, i like that it does. 

Intoxication.  I'm consumed, swallowed whole  from the words that leave your lips.  They, you, fill me, a catalyst, a fire, to burn for myself, to reach high, higher than I've dare gone before.  Beauty.  It lies within your voice, the reassurance you express  in a tone of truth and possibility,  I am awe-struck.  Seduction.  It pours itself into my cup,  overflowing with desire and  satisfaction that comes from your  touch. Confusion.  My brain tumbles and turns to determine how you came across my  wavelength, yet grateful, it feels,  because you did.  Surrender.  I fold at the sound of your voice  and the direction of your eyes.  I am your equal, yet I submit  willingly to senses I trust most.  Foundation.  The most important step in the process, where the strength, the endurance, lies.  Our individual resilience  conjoins, and within that,  holds a dynamic power...