it went by so fast that i couldn't keep up

An empty room

Filled with bodies

Voices of different

Tones and pitches

And volumes.

Stifled cries

In the corners,

Whispered sentiments by the photos,

Muffled screams

From his mother

In the chair

Adjacent

To the giggles that

Came from

The pew of the casket

Where I laughed

With friends

As we reminisced

Of the days that

Were simpler.

Hands and hugs

And hard squeezes

And heart break

And so many voices

From the bodies that filled

The empty room

That held

Him.

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